I don't know what to write about today.  I am very in between Doctors appointments, thought they will come fast and heavy starting tomorrow.  I will pick up the phone and ask for lifts and some help.  I will not be stubborn or pretend that everything is ok.  I hope I have peace today, something that a estranged loved one has been determined to ruin for the last few days. I have no means to stop this, and no one to help me in the family.  I am as sad as I possibly could be.

I am going to have a cookie and see if I can get my thoughts more positive.  All I feel right now is hate staring through me. I have felt that for days now.  Mission accomplished, huh.

I will be back and I will be ME.  Gimme an hour.