It has been a month since I posted so its time. I have been feeling reasonably ok. I am short of breath even at rest now, but, my rehab skills are still working reasonably well. I have had no setbacks, no new infections. I take 15 mg of prednisone daily and that is keeping both my appetite and my energy up. I eat more than I have ever eaten in my life. I cant gain weight though. At least I am maintaining around 110. Not quite good enough for transplant but within ten pounds. I could still force myself to get protein supplements going, but I will hold off a bit.
Emotionally I am ok. When I focus on here and now all is well. When I dwell on things I can't control, less so.
I am at peace with the world. No ghosts. No hauntings. My course is a true one.
Nicole gets stronger, more awesome by the day. I gave her full power of attorney two weeks ago.
Lunch today with the boys.
I miss G+. I miss you peeps. I will come out of my cave now.
I go to these places in my mind and stay awhile.
I used to worry and fret about the effects of the of my slightest actions. I dont anymore.
Now is for me.
love
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